Another program day

It is another program day. I will be going into the center and trying to get through the day. I do not interact to well with people I am more withdrawn. So I sit by myself mostly and write in my journal. I do not know what I would do without my journal. I like to have a 2 liter of soda too. I do not have the soda today.
We are going to have a picnic for Labor day. It will be at the house I just moved from. I hated it at that house. There was a client that drove me crazy. I am so much happier at the house I am at now.

Weekend

Weekends are kind of rough at the house. There is not too much to do. I have the internet so I play poker on line. That helps fill up the time. I keep a journal too and I am forever writing in that. Just about what I am doing throughout the day. I keep a journal on my computer too and I can take it out back at the house and write there.
The weather is good. We are getting into the fall. My favorite time of the year. I like the overcast skies and the dreary feeling to the day.

Seeing the Physicist

I went to my physicist. It was just a short visit in and out in 15 minutes. It is mainly to check to see how I am doing on my medication and to get new prescriptions. I do not see a psychologist about my everyday problems. As long as I take my medication I am stable. I see the doctor every 3 months and that is enough.
The program of Mosaic takes care of all the services. I do not need to worry about bills. I am suppose to pay a co-pay for my prescriptions but we can get by with only paying a little of that every now and then. I see a medical doctor too. I have that appointment coming up. So they do look after me here in Mosaic.

Living in a Group Home

I live in a group home with 2 other house mates. I have my own room. It is not too bad but it is hard to find things to do. I have the computer so that is a big help. I get food stamps and they supplement that with some money too. I have food to eat and a roof over my head. I am 58 years old so I will probably be in here for life. I do not think I can make it on my own after the 5 year conditional release is up. The house is basicly a place to come and sleep. I have a TV in my room and that helps. I use to have cable when I was living with my girlfriend but now I just have an antenna. I pick up a lot of good channels though. I have my privacy. It is a town house and there are other houses around that belong to Mosaic so I am not alone. Like I said it is a roof over my head and food to eat.

New Day at the program

I am getting ready to go to the program this morning. It is not too bad going. I see some people and there are "groups" we can go to that are little lesson classes. I usually do not go to classes. I spend my time outside in the good weather or down in the "soda room" if the weather is bad. The soda room is a room with chairs to sit on and 2 soda machines. I go up CVS and buy 2 liters of soda and have that throughout the day rather then spend 65 cents on a 12oz soda out of the machine. There are tables to sit on outside where some people gather to talk and smoke. There is a lot of smoking that goes on. I am going to try to quit smoking using nicotine gum. So that is a little bit about my day. It is not all bad. It can be boring and some days are better then others. I had a good weekend and I am ready to go in now.

Psychiatric Rehabilitation

I am back now. I have been away for a while. I am in a Psychiatric Rehabilitation program with Mosaic Inc. I live in a group home now. It is a long way from where I was before. I thought I would try to write of my experiences as a mental patient. For one I have a bi-polar illness. I had been in and out of hospitals for some time. It started to lead to where I would end up in the detention center. That is what happen to me this last time. I was found not criminally responsible for a crime I do not think I really committed. I ended up getting a 5 year conditional release that is why I am where I am at now. I do not like the program to well but it is a roof over my head and food in my belly. I was headed for a homeless life. I go to a program 5 days a week and that gives me something to do. I look at it that way and it makes it bearable. I do not think I am going to get out after the 5 years I will probably spend the rest of my life in the program. That is ok because I have pretty much done what I wanted to do in life. I will write more if I can to tell of my experience. I do not know if anyone will read it but I will try to put something down. Bye for now! 

Another year, different number

Starting to become an annual response.

Thanks for your submission. As you know, we had been looking at you for inclusion in this year's tour, and I think we had even been talking to you back and forth about the dates you would maybe be available. As of right now, we do not have a slot for you, but we had been hoping one might open as we started filling things out. This is why we had not yet responded to your app. However, our deadline has now passed (yesterday, actually), and Sonicbids has asked us to assign you a permanent status so that the application process for this year's tour can be closed.

Again, as I assume you were already aware of, we have been trying to work out a slot for you on this year's tour. But again, however, as it stands at this point (and again, this is the time that Sonicbids has required us to make the official final decision), we do not have slots for you.

Having said that, I want you to be aware that there is a chance that this could change in the near or semi near future. Due to the nature of a tour of this size and scope, and due to the very large number of bands that we work with, slots do reopen when circumstances beyond the control of the artists we have booked are, in fact, unable to keep their commitments.

You were an artist that our panel had really wanted to find something for, and we would like to find a place for you if one arises. The slots are full now, but life being what it is, we often have slots open back up. For that reason, I am placing you on a backup list of bands that we will contact when a slot opens up. You will have the option of accepting or rejecting that slot based on your desire and/or availability.

I know you probably wanted some feedback as to the notes our panel took when they reviewed your materials, and what, if anything, could be done to improve your chances in the future. With that in mind, I asked the Panel to give me at least a general sense of what they thought, and why you may not have been selected this time. I wanted to share with you the following feedback they gave me.

Here is the bottom line after our panel had listened to your music: They liked your music, and believe you have potential. You actually were in a pool of artists that they strongly considered and almost selected for the core of this Summer's tour, and they reached a consensus that they believe you are only going to get better and that they believe we would like to have with us in the future.

Due to the effort we make to blend the bands that are selected so that they complement each other, though, there simply were other bands that they felt were a better fit at this time, at the level they are currently at.

To be honest, this is a very contentious process and the competition for slots can be pretty fierce. There was some level of debate as to your selection, and I know that there was at least one or two of our panel who thought we should include you. It really was pretty close.

This is why we added you to the list that we would go to to fill the holes that I am sure will crop up over the next few months. Please be watching your email for us to contact you with offers of slots that may come available.

However, beyond any slots that may open back up for the tour this year, Extreme Tour Events also has some other projects coming up that we may be able to use you for. We have added your EPK to the list of artists we will consider for those opportunities as well, and I again encourage you to watch your email for our correspondence.

We will contact you in the near future should we decide to use you for those events. Thank you again for your application.

We would ask you to keep us appraised of the development of your music and career. We would like to consider you for next year's tour possibly as we believe you will probably only develop and improve. I especially think that we should stay in touch as there has already been real interest in you from Zach and Matt (our 2 primary A&R scouts. That bodes well for us working together in the future. So, this is not a no, it's a "not for now". Please do stay in touch. We will watch for your correspondence with us, and I will be in touch regarding these other opportunities.

Thank You, Again

Ted Bruun, and the Extreme Tour Team